Am I the only one that finds the ‘in-between’ time of Christmas and New Years a bit…well, I don’t know if ‘depressing’ is the right word, but like living life on pause? It’s like I find myself waiting for the actual New Year for something to happen. Being caught in-between this year, and the next. Ready to be done with 2014, and move on to 2015. Waiting on the New Year.
And you know what happens? Nothing. There’s no actual magical event that happens when the calendar flips over to start a new year. Cartoons LIED to me, Man! I’ve never seen an old man in a top hat switch places with a baby. Ever.
But, I still find myself making plans. Saying, “in the New Year, I’ll….”
Which begs the question: if flipping the calendar page really doesn’t change anything, why the holy heck am I waiting?
I have no idea. The idea of a new year is kind of like a fresh snow fall on an empty field. There aren’t foot prints, or any signs of anyone or anything else to mar the perfect, unblemished landscape. Starting a new year, in my head, is like that. I haven’t screwed anything up yet. It’s a fresh, blank canvass, waiting for my mark, for good or bad.
I don’t know about you, but I *need* that fresh canvas. When I look back on this past year, I see my errors. I see my screw ups, the missed opportunities, the myriad of ways I didn’t do what I ought to have done. Things I started that I didn’t follow through on. Goals I set that I let fall by the wayside. Ideas I had I didn’t pursue.
Times I let fear keep me standing still, instead of taking that next step.
And the problem with that is I’m still standing in the same place. Just another year older. Surrounded by missed time and opportunities.
I’ve always said I’m not one for New Year’s resolutions. And I haven’t been. But, I think I’m going to do it anyways. Set myself a series of goals. Make plans. Attempt to *gulp* establish some sort of organization in the chaos. Now, I’m not a complete idiot, setting Stepford goals. Noooope. Just small, bite sized goals that I can manage.
Yeah, that means there’s going to be more budget stuff on the blog. More Frugal Friday stuff, mixed in with my usual snarky humour.
I’ve decided to do my best to use up this new year. Claim it, and wring everything I can out of it, rather than standing on the side lines, watching the year go by.
What about you? How do you feel about the New Year?